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S**t Happens… and then you move on

After that shocking episode in my life last Friday, I’ve calmed down and figured that life still has to move on. Thanks to everyone who emailed and showed support for me. It’s times like these that you really value your friends and especially family. It’s really the people in your life that make everything worth it.

I’ve always believed in preparing for the worst. In this case, the worst is not having a job tomorrow and possibly never working for that company which offered me employment. Fortunately, I have a couple of other possible job opportunities. Although I did have to turn them down because of this one that I accepted. I’m going to go back and see if they’re still available. At the worst, although it would take some serious pride-swallowing on my part, I think I can still ask for my old job back.

We’re still pushing through with buying our house, even after this setback. We still have enough savings to cover us for at least a few months and I’m confident that I’ll be able to find something by then. In the meantime, I’ll just think of this as a well-earned rest.

Someone please wake me up from this horrible nightmare I’m having.

PUTANG INA!

I’m in a major F**KIN’ state of shock right now.

The company that I’m supposed to start work for next week just called up and informed me that they’re having some “budgetary problems” and that they might not be able to let me start on Monday as planned. They said that it’s highly possible that I could still start next week, if the issues get resolved today, or maybe the week after. I interpret that though as maybe it could never get a resolution. In which case, would mean I’m f**ked up the @$$ and I’m out of work. Obviously, with a house purchase coming in the next few weeks, that’s not good.

I’m pissed, I’m confused, I’m having a crisis right now and I’m blogging. Maybe I should stop and work on how to fix this mess I’m in. I’ll be back later, after I’ve figured out why the world is f***king with me.

It sucks to get old.

You know how your body starts to feel that it’s getting tired and aches start to happen where they didn’t before? Well, that’s happening to me now. I feel like an old man, but I’m only 28 – not even 30! What the hell’s wrong? I had a lower back pain the other day that just came out of nowhere, and although it wasn’t agonizingly painful, I could tell that my body is saying something to me.

Stop eating and get some exercise, you fool.

It’s not that I dont want to exercise regularly, in fact it’s the opposite. I used to play basketball, but haven’t done that in over a year. I’m taking up golf, but that doesn’t really use up a lot of calories (besides I suck at it). I have a gym that I belong to, and I would like to go there often to work out and lift weights. The main problem for me (besides being lazy) is that the drive that I do every day just sucks the energy out of me. At around 80 miles one way (equivalent to about an hour and a half drive), the energy just seems to dissipate from me every minute I drive. Then when I get home, I just plop down in front of the couch and watch TV like a mindless zombie. I’m becoming such a couch potato that I feel like I’m about to sprout some roots on our sofa.

Hopefully though, when I start my new job on Monday (which is only about 20 minutes away), I’ll finally be able to go to the gym and give my body the exercise it needs. Maybe then I can even join Aileen when she does those kickboxing exercises, or even take up yoga like PePs is doing. Then, maybe I’ll start feeling young again.

BTW – F**K the Lakers. They’re so damn good it makes me want to puke.

Although we live in Pittsburgh, we’ll always call the Philippines our home. Happy Independence Day!

This song just keeps playing ang playing in my head. This is such a great, great song about discovering yourself.

Superman(It’s Not Easy)

by Five For Fighting

I can’t stand to fly

I’m not that naive

I’m just out to find

The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane

More than some pretty face beside a train

It’s not easy to be me

It’s not easy to be me.

The official website to the sequel of one of the greatest sci-fi movies of all time has just gone live – check out Tron 2.0 here.

I’d like to drive one of these someday.

I can’t wait to get outta here! Friday is the last day of work for me here at NTTC and I can’t for it to be over. Although this place has been a good workplace for me for the past few months, it’s gotten pretty stagnant as of late. The project that they brought me in to work on fizzled out and they couldn’t get the funding for it, so I was pretty much stuck doing some small itsy-bitsy projects and maintenance, which only takes up half the day, if that. I’m really glad this is all ending because frankly, I’m getting bored out of my mind.

We just had another fight over the weekend – probably one of the biggest ones we’ve ever had. We eventually worked it out, but one thing I realized during it though was that I would rather be miserable and be with you and Zoe than be alone. For me, life is empty without you around. I believe in our love, I believe that we’ve got what it takes for us to last a lifetime, and believe that our marriage is all worth it.